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Live In the Moment

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This past weekend I had an object (or should that be ‘abject’) lesson in the folly of too much ‘saving for a special occasion.’   Specially, in this case, lingerie.  Back in my slender youth I did some modeling, which included quite a bit of lingerie.  I loved the stuff, bought the most romantic, frivolous items I could find (I loved the Gothic heroine look, for instance) and then squirreled them away in my dresser drawer(s) for the right occasion with the right man.  I wore some of it, but generally fell in the habit of sleeping in old comfy things. I wore several cotton chemises until they practically disintegrated from wear, tear and washing.

My lingerie collection moved with me from San Diego to Los Angeles, and then back down to San Diego again only to turn around and travel back up to L.A…and then eventually I ended up, along with my lingerie, in San Francisco.  I did get rid of some of it along the way.  I gave some of the uber-Goth/vampire/red lace bustier type things to the daughter of a friend.  Meghan was into the role-playing game Kindred at the time and I love nothing better than passing along my belongings to someone who will appreciate them.  It’s like sending them to a new home.  Yes, I anthropomorphize things quite a bit.

Other items I’ve held onto even though I’ve only seen them while pulling out of moving boxes to put back into my dresser. I’d think about wearing them every now and again, but after a long day at work/writing/caring for the cats/cooking, it just seemed like too much trouble.  Besides, in SF it’s almost always flannel pajama weather…  Sexy pj’s would be a tank top and nice underwear.  Something I could wear underneath the flannel pajamas, y’know? 

The last few months I noticed my antique dresser and its contents smelled kind of funky.  Musty, mildewy, as if they’d been stored in someone’s damp attic for a few years.   Everything out, into the wash, lots of white vinegar and sunshine.  All the drawers pulled out, put into the sun, white vinegar and bleach, hoping for the best.   Put everything back in and it seemed fine, until a few weeks ago the smell was back. 

So one more time, even more heavy duty mildew killers used in the dresser interior and the drawers, although not as much sunshine because we’ve had approximately five sunny days all summer long.   This weekend I put everything back in the dresser… except I decided to try on my lingerie just for the hell of it. 

Bad idea. 

Well, at least as far as my ego was concerned.  

Yeah, some of it still fits.  But not a lot.  Some of it looks like it could only be worn by a ten year old, yet I did indeed fit in it at one time.  This was, of course, after losing 15 pounds in two weeks after a particularly nasty breakup in which my heart was thoroughly broken – I was the thinnest I’d ever been during this period of my life.  At any rate, these gorgeous, frivolous things, some of them vintage (all of them vintage these days, heh) that I hardly ever wore… I would now never wear them again.  Saved for a special occasion that never arrived and now that I’m smart enough to create my own special occasions, I’m defeated by my changed body and expanded waistline. 

Was my waist ever 24 inches without a corset?  Yup, it sure was. 

Will it ever be again?   HAH!  Not unless I’m hit with a wasting disease, in which case I doubt I’d be in the mood to prance around in sexy lingerie. 

So I’ve put it aside in a bag for eBay, along with other items from my past that either no longer fit my body or no longer suit my personality.  The things I’ve kept that still fit and suit are going to be worn.  Otherwise in ten years I’ll just have to do this all over again.  And that would be a waste of some damned sexy lingerie.  

Expression Lines? – Day 27

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I had a totally different post in mind for today’s post. I wrote the majority of it this morning on my Alpha, but something else crossed my path that I just had to share and see if everyone else finds it as amusing as I do.

I work at a venture capital firm that invests in green and sustainable technology/beauty/cleaning supplies/etc., anything in the area of health and wellness. Which is kind of cool ’cause it’s really one of the first VC firms to venture into this area. I don’t want to be an office manager the rest of my life, but for the time being it’s a good job with good people. We do due diligence on products sent from potential investment companies and I swiped (with my managing director’s permission, of course!) a very expensive skin care kit to test out. It promises, among other things, to balance out all skin types, give you visibly firmer, younger-looking skin and ‘targets the causes of expression lines.’

‘Targets the causes of expression lines.’

Now is it just me, or does this bring to mind visions of faces super-glued into immobility, thus ensuring expressions do not occur and form those nasty expression lines. Botox in a bottle, maybe? It brought back to mind advice from a photographer friend of mine during my modeling days: he told me to always try and keep my face placid, with just the slight hint of a smile in my ‘cheekbones.’ It would prevent wrinkles from forming, he said.

I think it’s obvious I did not follow this advice.

I’m going to try out the product. It’s…well, let’s just say this kit has a retail price just short of $200. And I’m pretty confident whoever wrote that priceless piece of ad copy was referring to laugh lines (oooh, evil!!!) , crows feet and frown lines All of which are signs of aging, but also of our lives. Expression lines. So I’m not worried about becoming as waxy and immobile as Cher or Joan Rivers …but I’m not gonna be too disappointed if all the lines on my face are still there when I’m done with the due diligence. I’ve earned every one of them.